Ah...college.

So it's finally here. I'm leaving for UCSD on Tuesday (tomorrow) and, right now, it still feels pretty surreal. I feel like the time I have left isn't enough, that I have more things I need to do at home. I guess I'll only get closure the day I leave. I'm leaving so much here that I don't even know what to do with myself.

The biggest question I have is: Am I going to enjoy the next 4 years? Hell yeah I am. By now, I've done all this sadness shit (pms is no good for the week before you leave, trust me), and it really sucks actually feeling something besides happiness, which is basically what I had all this summer.

After talking to a plethora of people, I've reached the conclusion that putting others before yourself is fucking overrated. For the next 4 years, Cynthia K. Le is #1 in my book. Well, other things like family and community can have a tie, but for the most part, I have to take care of myself. I will have no time to be sad, to worry about that someone, to do anything besides watch out for #1. Harsh, but I have to try.

"You leave good things in the past to make way for great things." No idea who said that, but I don't wholeheartedly agree because there are just some good things that will always have a good chunk of my heart. I feel like an idiot for investing so much emotion and feeling for something I can't have anymore, but that's reality. I can't do anything about it anymore, so it's in the past.

To anyone who read this (which I doubt are many because I never write blogs ha), I love you. In some way, you have influenced my happiness, my joy, and my experiences here up until tomorrow. I promise that I will do my best to keep in touch with everyone back home and at other universities. I will not forget the times we've had.

Keep in touch,
Cynthia